Be Still and Know that I am God

The title comes from Psalm 46:10, where David writes “Be Still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, and I will be exacted in the earth.”

Now, when you first look at the verse, you would think it means to be quiet and acknowledge God. Not in particularly, although, it does help to be quiet and let God do his thing.

When it says to “Be Still” in that verse, it actually means to Stop, Let it God, Stop Fighting, Stand Down, Cease Striving, Stop trippin, and to actually Be Still.

In Exodus 14:12-14, the Israelites were complaining and it was at that time that Pharoah was pursuing them after their exodus from Egypt. Moses was still trying to keep them together and told them to chill with these words. Well, let me give you verse 12 first

12 “Is this not the word that we spoke to you in Egypt saying, ‘Leave us alone that we may serve the Egyptians’? For it would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than to die in the wilderness.”

Moses’ response

13-14 “But Moses said to the people, “Do not fear! Stand by and see the salvation of the Lord which He will accomplish for you today; for the Egyptians whom you have seen today, you will never see them again forever. The Lord will fight for you while you keep silent.”

After Moses’ response, the Israelites saw that God had their backs by parting the red sea, which pretty much drowned Pharaoh’s peeps.

But even though they saw with their own eyes that God had their back, then still complained and thus the golden calf happened, while Moses was getting the Ten Commandments, and as a result of their ongoing disbelief and disobedience, they were cursed with wondering in the wilderness for 40 years and wasn’t able to see the promise land which was promised to their forefathers.

Isn’t ironic that the Israelites were God’s chosen people and yet they complained thI e most, not to mention they didn’t receive Jesus and he was one of them.

The more I think about it, that could be why they complained so much, because they thought that they were entitled to God’s blessings, because they were the chosen ones. Well, like my mama always told me, this aint Burger King, where you can have it your way. But I digress……

The point of this post is to remind everyone that God is always in control. Even when you don’t see it, he is. He’s always and forever in control.

Things are bad now in the world and unfortunately, I don’t think it will get better, because of Jesus’ warning in Mark 13. Stand firm and continue to hold on to God’s unchanging hand.

I have a feeling that it’s almost time to go home to be with the Lord and each year that feeling gets stronger. But until such time, I will continue to spread his gospel and to be what he has called all of his children to be: The light of the world.

It’s natural to be fearful. I’ll be honest, each time I get in my car and I see a cop, I am scared. It’s makes me mindful to obey the speed limit and make sure that everything is up to date, so that they won’t have a reason to pull me over. I also have a small fear about the Presidential election. ***sidebar*** I don’t want Trump to be the President of the United States. No way, Jose. At the same time, if that happens, I will do thus saith the Lord and Be Still.

He said he will never leave us nor forsake us. So, we should believe in that always and forever and always remember that we are to render unto God. Trust him and remember that this world is not our home. When you give your life to Christ, you are no longer citizens of this world, because our citizenship is in Heaven. So, continue to keep your eyes and your hearts upon our Heavenly Home.

Until, the next time, Lord willing,



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The Unforgiving Spirit

An Unforgiving Spirit

I had one recently and I’m not proud of it.

I learned that someone hurt me greatly, that could have cost me my job. I even tried to give them the benefit of the doubt and not place blame, but when I learned that it was true, my heart completely harden.

I said that I forgave them, when in fact I didn’t. I wanted to, but for some reason I couldn’t. The reason was me.

Why? Because I wanted that person to hurt as much as I was. I wanted to know why they put a hit out on me to hurt my career. I wanted them to suffer like I was suffering. I wanted them to pay.

In the process, I was paying the price. Whatever they felt was between them and God alone. But the unforgiveness that I held in my heart towards them was between me and God and it threaten my fellowship with me and my blessings.

How did it affect my fellowship and blessings with him?

Matthew 6:14 -15 – For if you forgive others for their transgressions, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive your transgressions.

You read it right, if I forgive others, then our Heavenly Father will forgive me; but if I don’t, then he won’t.

Ephesians 4: 31–32 – Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you.

The Lord has a way of getting our attention when we screw up. Just like the gossip message, he delivered a message via Dr. Charles Stanley about having an Unforgiving Spirit (the actual title was Freedom from Bondage Part 1 from June 30 Podcast) and I took notes while working. It was if God was speaking to me directly and I got teary eyed and had such remorse and I felt bad.

But what really hit me was when he said that I had no right to hold unforgiveness and that when I became a Christian, I gave up that right.

He’s was right, but that day I heard the podcast (July 1) I wasn’t ready to forgive. I needed to get some things off my chest. I was still seeing her with incredible bitterness that overcame me. I was hurting by what she did, but in the process I was destroying my own being and I was indirectly infecting everyone around me with the bitterness I held in my heart.

Why was everyone else infected with my bitterness?

Because I wanted to destroy her reputation. I’m not ashamed to admit that, but it was wrong of me to involve other people in my pain. Once I did what I’m about to admit, I did go to them and explain that I had to let go of my unforgiving spirit and truly forgive her and wipe the slate clean.

The Healing process – The Truth way to forgive and forget

I couldn’t rest, in fact, I had trouble sleeping and at first I thought that I was having acid reflux episodes, because of bad eating, but as my friend told me, no you were stressed. Yeah, I was stressed and I was the cause of it.

My mother always told me that the other person doesn’t hurt when they have hurt me, I’m the one who hurts when I don’t forgive them. I didn’t even think about what that truly meant, until God himself got me straight. His word is our guide for a reason.

Dr. Stanley suggested taking 2 chairs and I sit in one and hypothetically sit the object of my unforgiveness in the other chair. The problem with that is I don’t articulate that well when I speak sometimes, so I would have not gotten out everything that needed to get out. The Lord reminded me that I do articulate very well in writing. So, that Saturday afternoon, I sat by myself (my cat was lurking in the background, so I wasn’t completely alone) and I got out everything I felt. I started out by apologizing for the things that I did to her to cause her to hurt me. Then I explained to her why she hurt me and told her how I felt. Then I explained that I didn’t have the right any longer to hold the debt over her head. Her debt was cleared (just as ours) on the cross by Jesus himself.

Then I completely gave it all to the Lord. All the hurt, the pain, the memory, the fear, the threats, the turmoil, and most of all the unforgiveness and bitterness and everything else to the Lord and I ask for her healing, as well. It’s not healthy for either one of us to hold on to this. And once I did this, the load and the guilt was lifted. I also forgave myself for what I did that got me in trouble in September at work (which was totally my fault) and I forgave my managers for the way they confronted me. I completely felt the guilt and finally felt free.

Now I walk into my office secure in the knowledge that the slate has been clean by God himself and more importantly, man may remember my sins, but God already forgave me of my sins and remembered it no more (Hebrews 8:12)

As of today, I can look at the situation and the girl who hurt me, as well as myself and my managers with no bitterness. It happened and it happened for a reason beyond all of our control. It brought me closer to the Lord, as I have in a while. I had backslidden like crazy and the Lord has a way of getting our attention when we ignore him too much. (I didn’t really ignore him, but I had stop regularly studying the bible, so that probably what did it) not to mention, this taught me that I need to be extremely mindful and careful of others feelings, intentionally and unintentionally.

I was told that I can be sometimes rude (which is common among all of my fellow peers in my office) and when I asked my mom how I would come off, she agreed that I am a tad rude with my responses. I do have a sarcastic trait, but I think as my heart had harden it was no longer the Female Chandler Bing from Friends sarcastic, but the bitter and mean cynical sarcastic. It wasn’t right and it wasn’t fair to them and of course, apologizes from me were in order.

So, what was the point of this post?

To let others know that we Christians also struggle with unforgiveness and bitterness. We’re not exempt from that, but also we have the Holy Spirit to convict us of doing wrong and this was my punishment for grieving him, when I was ignoring and try to get away and justifying my reasons for not forgiving.

I was suffering physically and emotionally, more importantly spiritually, because I wasn’t in fellowship with God. Prayers wasn’t being answered and it was my fault. NO one else.

I’m a grown woman and I’m not afraid to acknowledge my mistakes and this was one that I’m not proud of.

According to 2nd Corinthians 2:5-11, Satan will take advantage and will try to outwit us, when we have that unforgiveness and bitterness in us. We have to rise above that and forgive, so it doesn’t rob us of the life that God intends for us to have.

So, I implore each of you to learn from my mistakes and don’t do what I just lived through. If you have unforgiveness in your lives and hearts, please make it right today.

Jesus paid our sin debt in full on the cross, when he took on the sins (past, present, and future sins) of all of mankind. He paid the penalty and paid our ransom. Thus making a way for us to be reconcile to God the Father.

1 Corinthians 5:21 – He made Him who knew no sin to be sin on our behalf, so that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.

So, if you don’t know Christ as your Lord and Savior today, please believe in Jesus Christ and what he did for all of mankind on the cross. His death, burial, and resurrection is his gospel and the good news that we share with the world.

Today is the day of salvation, now is the acceptable hour, because we don’t know the day nor the hour, when we will take his children (believers in Christ aka the Body of Christ) home, so please accept his free gift of salvation before it’s too late. You don’t have to do anything, except believe in him, believe that he died for you and that he is our risen savior. And in that moment, you are forgiving and you will receive the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.

May God continue to bless and smile upon you all



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Gossip is Fun, But God Hates It

I got to definitely confess that I like to gossip. It’s fun, it’s appealing to the ears, and it’s interesting.

But you know who does not find it fun, appealing, or interesting? God. Yep, it’s actually something he abhors and no matter how much you find it fun.

Don’t believe me?

Proverbs 6:16-19

There are six things which the Lord hates, Yes, seven which are an abomination to Him: Haughty eyes, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, A heart that devises wicked plans, Feet that run rapidly to evil, A False Witness who utters lies, And one who spread strife among brothers.

Chile, I learned this the hard way. The hard way being that he read me for filth, as they say now.

Every morning when I’m at work I listen to In Touch ministries, Dr. Charles Stanley. The topic for that day: Gossip. I said ok and I listened to the entire 20 min lesson and took notes, while working. It’s when I learned that God really hates gossip.

I mean it’s obviously something that I’ve heard before, but hey when Satan wants you do his dirty work, then do you really listen? No you don’t. Because he will deliver the temptation in such a beautiful gift wrap, that it is literally hard to resist.

So why is Gossip so appealing?

Some call it tea, receipts, the scoop, whatever it is, it’s insider information that every human being on this earth enjoys to be a part of. Even though, we don’t like to be the topic of the gossip. No one actually enjoys that. Well, maybe some do, but they usually enjoy the attention part, not necessarily the gossip part. There was a reason why Gossip Girl was a popular TV show (xoxo) and yes guys gossip just as much as girls do, sometimes even better.

But the thing about Gossip is that it isn’t always true, because some people will say, “Well, if it’s true, then it’s not gossip”, no gossip is gossip, which means in the eyes of the Lord, it’s a sin.

So, lets see how God feels about Gossip

Proverbs 16:28

A perverse man spreads strife, And a slanderer separates intimate friends.

Exodus 23:1

You shall not bear a false report; do not join your hand with a wicked man to be a malicious witness.

James 4:11

Do not speak against one another, brethren He who speaks against a brother or judges his brother, speaks against the law and judges the law; but if you judge the law, you are not a doer of the law but a judge of it.

Psalm 101:5

Whoever secretly slanders his neighbor, him I will destroy; No one who has a haughty look and an arrogant heart will I endure

Leviticus 19:16

You shall not go about as a slanderer among your people, and you are not to act against the life of your neighbor; I am the Lord.

Proverbs 18:6-7

A fool’s lips bring strife, And his mouth calls for blows. A fool’s mouth is his ruin, and his lips are the snare of his soul.

You know it was also apart of the Ten Commandments

Exodus 20:16

You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor

We will be here all year, if I go through all the verses that pertains to gossip in the bible.

Warnings about Gossiping

Proverbs 20:19

He who goes about as a slanderer reveals secrets, Therefore do not associate with a gossip

Psalm 34:13

Keep your tongue from evil and you lips from speaking deceit

Proverbs 11:13

He who goes about as a talebearer reveals secrets, But he who is trustworthy conceals a matter.

Proverbs 21:23

He who guards his mouth and his tongue, Guards his soul from troubles

Yesterday at work, I was intrigued by my co-workers intense conversation and I can tell you whatever it was they were talking about it was juicy and yes, I wanted to know what it was. I even paused my music to listen. I walked over to my co-worker’s desk to dip. Then I heard the Lord loud and clear to stop it. I was just ask guilty just by dipping, even though I had no clue what they were talking about. The sheer fact that I was aching to know was wrong and it’s crazy how our human mindset ache to participate in something that didn’t involve us. It was none of my business, so I put my mind back on what I was doing before.

I understand why God hates gossip, just as I understand why Satan loves it. God is not the author of confusion (1 Cor 14:33), but Satan is the author and the father of lies (John 8:44)

Paul said in 1 Peter 3:9 “Do not repay evil for (with) evil or insult for (with) insult” So if someone gossips about you, don’t do the same.

If you participate in gossiping, you’re guilty – point blank.
If you just listen, still guilty.
If you ache to know and start dipping – still guilty.

We literally have to be mindful about this wicked sin and remember that it’s one of the things that it’s an abomination in the eyes of the Lord.

Now, the point of these blogs is also teaching myself. I can’t promise or declare that I or any of us will never gossip (intentionally or not, directly or not) again. It’s impossible to promise that. It’s impossible to tell yourself that.

The only thing we can do is to continue to let the Lord direct our paths, ask the Holy Spirit to lead and guide us into all truths. Continue to feed the Spirit in us and not feed the flesh with ungodly things. Which is important that we are extremely careful of what we introduce ourselves to, who we listen to, and watch, etc.

So, I say again. Gossiping is fun, but God hates it.




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Confession Time: I suck at blogging

Hello peeps,

The title says it all about what this post is about. I’m extremely sorry for falling short with my lack of blog posts. I have been working more lately, but also I’m in the pre-op stages of having surgery; Gastric Bypass to be exact.

It’s a decision and a process that has been in place for almost a year. Now I’m in the very last stages of approaching the upcoming surgery date.

As I have shared at one point, I had a mini-stroke and through a lot of prayer, lifestyle changes, etc, the bypass was the best option, especially since it would put my diabetes into remission (Lord willing) and also to eliminate or put into remission my sleep apnea, metabolic syndrome (high blood pressure, high cholesterol, etc). It’s been a long journey and I had to get over my pride and myself and take the steps to get myself healthy.

I needed restrictions and I know that with the gastric bypass, if you eat sweets or the wrong thing period, I’ll get sick, I will endure the dumping syndrome.

Let it be known that I am not during this as a quick fix, which is the common misconception in regards to gastric bypass, it’s a tool to help with weight loss. Some folks, like myself, need this tool to successfully lose weight and to keep it off. Changing my eating habits and exercising wasn’t doing it alone, so this tool will help get me on the path of being even more healthy and also make it possible for me to have a successful pregnancy, when the time comes of course.

I’m asking for prayer in this journey, because the journey will be forever until the Lord calls me home to be with him. I’m ready and through prayer and faith through our Lord and Savior, I know that the battle will be won.

I’ll keep everyone posted, but also I will try to post more, because I know that my ministry with this blog is not done yet, because souls still need to be saved. I just wanted to give a clear explanation in regards to my long winded AWOL. I really do suck at blogging, but I will definitely try to post more.

Until next time,



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Reasons why It’s Time to say Goodbye for Good to RHOA


So, I’ve talked about my guilty pleasure of watching the Real Housewives Franchise before. Well, Atlanta Housewives was always my fav of the entire franchise. Just like my love for Charmed ended, my love of RHOA has to end too.

I’m not the only one who has felt this way recently. Maybe my reasons are little bit more different, especially since I’ve took a break before.

1) The Lord told me it’s time to move on.

I know it’s weird for some people, but when you have a relationship with Jesus, he pretty much knows what is best for you, in every aspect of your life, that includes which TV shows and movies or your overall entertainment choices.

Example: At one point, I could watch Charmed and then after watching it for so long, I felt a conviction and every time I would watch it, the conviction got stronger and then I prayed about it and was advised to stop watching it. Another example: Lifetime had a show called “The Witches of East End” with Jenna Dewan-Tatum and I saw the first episode and loved it, but the Lord told me not to watch it again. (I guess when you’re a watcher of too many fantasy and science fiction stuff, It’s overwhelming one’s nature) So, I stopped.

2) Too much hate for one person

I’ve endured this with Real Housewives of every city with Teresa Giudice from NJ, Vicki from OC, Kim and Brandi from BH, Aviva from NY and of course, Kenya from ATL. Sometimes you have to look at the entire picture and realize that hating someone gives off too much of negative energy and it’s also giving place to Satan, because he loves the gang ups, the confusion, and the hate.

With Kenya, this girl gets blamed for everything, it seems like. If you’re a fan (and I am a proud team twirl member), you’ll may get label as her paid employee or that you’re just as delusional. ( I’m serious, go to Lipstick Alley and you will see in their Real Housewives forums of Kenya’s fans getting ridicule for their love of Kenya). Anyhoo, let’s take the Miami trip (if you’re a fan you know what I’m talking about) Kenya gets the blame for Glen Rice, Jr being kicked out, even though he was pretty much threatening her and throwing up gang signs. Did I mention that he pushed his aunt to the floor. I also listen to an interview where Kenya goes into full detail and explain that this guy was arguing with more than one person. Plus, Kenya’s haters get stuff wrong. Like when they say that Kenya approached him and should have not said anything to him. Duh? He asked why he had to leave? What was she supposed to say?

3) Porsha has yet to take responsibility for her actions, especially regarding her attack at Season 6 reunion.

In fact, Porsha has made every excuse under the sun why she’s justified in her attack on Kenya. First of all, the reunions are shade fest, pretty much the final exam of the semester, if you will, but it’s not a Love and Hip Hop or Mob Wives reunion, you don’t get up and pull someone’s hair for calling you a dumb ho, especially after you called her a “Slut from the 90s” Sit down Porsha.

Not to mention, that girl is one of the biggest hypocrites on this show and the

4) Phaedra is a pathological Liar and Modern day Pharisee.

Each time Jesus read the Pharisees and Scribes for fifth, put Phaedra to the mix. She’s quick to call someone a slut or whore, when they don’t agree with her. Or she will lie like a rug in heat, even when she’s caught in the lie, she will still continue to lie.

Plus, she the other biggest hypocrite on the show. Don’t call anyone a whore and then you wear skimpy, see-through swimsuit cover up twerking, shaking your butt, and talk about sex on National Television.

I’m going to leave this as that, because we’ll be all night, if I keep going on Phaedra.

The girl has a jezebel spirit to boot.

5) The show has become too ratchet

There is a reason why I don’t watch Bad Girls Club or Love and Hip Hop, because it’s too ratchet and I’ll stand up and say “Why?” However, it’s because it gets the people talking is what making these shows so popular, because it’s a train wreck that you can’t turn away from.

Real Housewives was suppose to be a real-life portrayal of Desperate Housewives, but it was suppose to also show and obtain a level of class and see the fancy and glamour in the ladies closets, décor, fashions, etc. They were the socialites to vicariously live through.

However, when they started to introduce fighting, which actually started not with the Housewives or their husbands, but 2 teenagers from Real Housewives of Orange County; but every since the Teresa flipping the table, Ashley pulling Danielle’s hair, the Christening brawl between the Guidice and Gorgas, the hair pulling drag from Porsha to Kenya, and then the power ranger kicking from Cynthia to Porsha; it’s too much and it eliminates the classiness from the show.

One housewife in particular is going to cost Bravo TV and probably NBC, since they are the parent company to Bravo, is going to cost them a huge liability, because she is the main housewife that has been in 3 fights on the Housewives watch. (The 3rd fight will be shown at tonight’s reunion)

So, these are the main reasons why I can’t watch this show anymore after tonight. I’m sick of yelling at my screen and for my blood pressure going up. It’s no longer worth my time.

I do however love Potomac Housewives and will catch the new installment Dallas. Will definitely catch RHONY, because they are the less harmless and probably will continue to catch Beverly Hills. But OC, NJ, and ATL I will not watch again.

With OC, I didn’t like the gang up on Vicki thing. Blaming her for Brooks’ lies is not my forte, because it’s on him and him alone.

With NJ, I don’t get the worship of the Teresa show. No thank you. Plus Mama Caroline is not going to be on it, so why bother.

Anyhoo, that’s it, the end for this show. I’ve already gotten the “Yeah right, we’ve heard this before” The difference is that this time God intervene, like he had to do with my candy crush addiction.

Thank you Jesus for setting me free.



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Holy Week Music – Celebrate (He Lives)

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Holy Week Music – Via Dolorosa

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Holy Week Music – He Decided to Die

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Holy Week Music – How Deep the Father’s Love for Us

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Holy Week Music – There is a Fountain

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