I’m sitting here at work listening to a sermon about God having a plan for your life and in thinking about some of the recent changes in my life; well he wanted me to share with you how I am feeling.
To be honest, sometimes I don’t understand God’s plan and will for my life. I don’t have the inside scoop, the behind the scenes, or spoilers, if you will. Every Saturday, I’ve gotten in the habit of going to soapcentral.com and look at the spoilers for the soaps for the coming week, so that I can have an idea of where the storyline is going, especially since I can’t watch them. When it comes to real life, it’s not that simple.
I believe that sometimes, God will let me go through the issues that I go through, until he gets my undivided attention and say “Are you going to let me handle this or what?” What I like about God is that he got my back no matter the situation. He is always there. Even when I’m acting crazy and stupid, he is still right there in the midst of it all.
If you remember from the recent post a while back “Sometimes you have to say goodbye” I said goodbye to a friendship and although it was a long time coming and I feel a load lifted from the release, doesn’t mean it doesn’t or didn’t hurt. When your mind comes back to the same issue, again and again, you got to stop and ask God “What’s going on?” I’m sure in my venting sessions that my issues with my ex-friend came about. Which is probably why the question he asked me was “And why are you friends with this person again?” It just happened that we along with a group of people we worked with started to hang out outside of work. Eventually, it got comfortable.
I am literally surprise that I became friends with my friend in the first place, because we argued like an old married couple. Now you know that phrase “Friends come into your life for reason, a season, and for life” In looking back on past friendship, I can see why this is the case. Every now and then, I will always here a voice saying “He’s only in your life for a season.” And I’ve also heard “He’s not going to be your friend for life.” Now I have a terrible memory, but I remember little things that I have spoken to me of importance; even if I don’t get it right then and there, it always comes back. But praise but unto God in Christ Jesus, that he remembers all; And that I have the indwelling of his Spirit to help bring back the memory of what I heard or saw.
God has seasons in our lives that we go through and they are all for his glorification. Remember this, it aint about us, it’s all about him. He said in Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”
You have to trust and believe that he got your back. Even when you want to shout out, “Seriously” it’s still a reason that he has you go through it. My left wrist hurts like crazy, and I was diagnosed with wrist tendonitis. I cannot remember when I talked to him about it but I do remember asking for his healing power remembering that with his stripes, we are already healed. I asked that if it wasn’t his will that the at home treatment (advil, brace, ice, heat) doesn’t work, that he will just walk with me through the pain. I have no idea what’s going to happen during or after my appointment with the Orthopedics Doctor (Lord Willing) on Monday, but I’m holding on to God’s unchanging hand the entire way through.
I’m about to get on a plane in two weeks, as well as in the middle of May (Lord willing of course) and fly to the West Coast on both trips. I don’t like being cramped in tight spaces, so that’s the main reason why I’m afraid to fly and of course, the second reason is my fear of heights. I pray before, during, and even after the plane ride, but I know now at this moment that God is in control and his plan will prevail no matter what. My trust and my faith is in him. (I’m also so grateful to him for the ipad with the kindle books to distracted me)
It takes a long while to get to the point and I’m still learning to trust God in everything. I’m married right now, I don’t even have a boyfriend, but I know that God has a specific season for that to even happen. I’m just along for the ride. It’s just my human nature to get antsy and frustrated, but remember that God is not a god of confusion, that’s the Devil’s territory.
Now, in regards to ending my friendship, the season was over. I believe that God is or has moved me into a new season and a separation was needed, probably because I get easily distracted and I’m sensitive to certain people’s emotions. Dude was a very negative person and always complaining and it was beginning to rub off on me and no one wants that in their life. And I get that some people will say “don’t blame God”, I actually don’t blame God for anything. If anything, I thank him for saving me from more sleepless nights and inner confusion.
Remember the story about Gideon in the book of Judges Chapter 6-8. It started with the story about the Israelites doing evil in God’s sight and he handed them over to the Midianites. The Israelites conditions got so bad that they cried out to God and in a nutshell, God sent the Angel of the Lord to read the Israelites for not listening to God in the first place. Then the Angel of the Lord told Gideon that the Lord was with him and he called him “Mighty hero.” Then Gideon asked a rhetorical question about why all that happened to them was happening. So, God told him to take what strength you have and rescue Israel from the Midianites. Gideon questioned God’s choice because his clan was the weakest in the tribe and he was the least of his family. He kept asking God to show him how he was going to be with him and prove to him that God wanted him to lead, when God said he will be with him, which God definitely proved he was with him and he made the right choice in choosing him.
So, Gideon gets the army together and it was over 32,000. God told him it was too much and told him straight up in verse 8 in chapter 7, that if he let all the warriors fight, then they will boast to God that they saved themselves by their own strength. So, he told Gideon to tell the gang that anyone who was timid and afraid to go home and 22,000 went home, leaving 10,000. God said, that it was still too many and told Gideon to bring the rest of the gang to the spring and he would test them to determined who will go with Gideon and who wouldn’t. The test was that the gang was divided into two groups. One group drank the water in their hands, but was still on high alert to their surroundings; while the other group got on their knees and drank the water from the stream.
The Lord told Gideon to take the 300 men who drank the water with their hands and send the rest home. Then God gave further instructions and Gideon and the 300 men won the victory, with the Lord’s help. The major point was that Gideon trust God, even when he wasn’t quite sure, he still trusted him, especially once the Lord prove to himself to him. Did I mention that Gideon’s men didn’t have to lift a finger? The Midianites ended up killing themselves.
We humans, especially of today’s world, we want God to prove that what he said he will do, even though we know via his Word and folk’s testimony, and the death, burial, and resurrection of his son Jesus Christ; we still want proof. Here is some advice, trust him anyhow. Even though you can’t see the end of the story, just trust and believe God and that he has always kept his promise that he will never leave us nor forsake us. Trust God.
Jesus himself said in John 16:33 “I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.”
So, even if you don’t get what’s going on. Don’t blame God or turn your back on him. Thank him that he is there and thank him for his plan. Even if you say and I’ve said this plenty of times, “This bites and I hate that this has happen, but I thank you that this is not permanent and eventually the storm will end; and I praise you for your plan and protection over my life.” And if you mess up and step out of his will by handing things on your own, just confess it, own it, move on, and don’t fret about it again. He knows how each of us operates, that is nothing new to him; he just wants us to talk to him and humble ourselves before him and admit that we need him.
David said in Psalm 16:8 “I have set the LORD always before me: because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.”
Meaning the Lord is always with us and because he’s with us, we cannot fail; And when it’s God’s plan, it won’t fail.
I pray that this will help someone, if not today, maybe one day and it’s definitely helping me, because he knows I can be a control freak in certain areas of my life. And if you don’t believe that God has a plan, check out the bible, study about Job, Paul, Peter, David, Gideon, etc; and you will find that he had a plan from start to finish. Just like he has a plan before the foundation of the universe began and he has a plan after this world ends. Remember, Heaven and Earth will pass away but God’s word will always and forever stand.
love you all and be strong in the Lord,
BTW…If I disappear after this post, I’m restricting my typing to rest my wrist a bit more. But for the rest of March, Worship Music Mondays have already been loaded up and ready to post on the schedule Monday.