So, I’m sure that everyone has wanted to get vengeance at some point in their life against something or someone. It also seems to be a huge thing in popular culture:
Revenge of the Nerds
Revenge TV Show – which is actually getting boring now
Revenge of the Sith – I’m a Star Wars geek
Revenge of the Bridesmaids
Spartacus: Vengeance (I aint never seen that much gore in my life til this)
There are more, but they all have the common theme of getting revenge. Now, I’m going to keep it real and admit that I have gotten payback in the past.
How did it make me feel?
I can see why the bible says “Vengeance is Mine, I will repay, says the Lord” in Romans 12:19. In fact the full verse in the KJV says “Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine, I will repay, saith the Lord.”
In other words, vengeance will be given out, but it’s not ours to give. Believe it or not, God has a hand in every aspect of our lives, including when people betray us, deceive us, etc. He knows what’s going on and he knows how to deal. Now, how he deals, we don’t know but I’m certain that he doesn’t have a list like we humans have, but trust and believe he remembers.
My sister has a list that she keeps, which is similar to the list that Lassister on the tv show Psych has. In fact, I move up and down on the list, as well as my cat; 10 being the worst, of course. I used to actually keep a list myself, but I stopped.
Actually, it takes a lot now for me not to like someone and I don’t know if it has to do with the fact that I have the indwelling of the Holy Spirit inside me or if it’s apart of my growth throughout the years, but it literally takes a lot of me to dislike someone. As of now, I can count off my hand how many people I don’t like and a couple of them are family members (Sad but true).
Recently, I felt betrayed but someone who has a habit of betraying me and I would give them chance, after chance. I was sick with bronchitis and a cold that took me out of work for a couple of days and instead of calling to check up on me, this person bad mouthed me to people and of course, word got back to me. Needless to say, I wasn’t surprise but I was hurt. That’s unavoidable, as humans we are going to feel hurt and excuse me for saying “pissed off” (which I was). I was so ticked that I proclaimed and made up in my mind and even told the Lord that I was writing this person off forever, never talking to them again, blocked them from my IM, email, and phone number, I mean I was dead serious (Oh did I mention this person was a co-worker?) Well, after I calmed down, I realized why I didn’t feel 100% at peace with my decision:
1) The Holy Spirit was convicting me. Why? Because that’s not how God operates, so we shouldn’t either.
2) I’m a stubborn fool when I’m ticked off, so I needed time to cool off.
3) When we become new creatures in Christ, your whole entire being changes, including with how you deal with things, such as “cutting someone off”
I believed that by cutting her completely off from my orbit, I was punishing this person, but I realize that in the end, I was going to be the one that was hurting. Didn’t like that too much. My sister told me something that happened to her yesterday and she was pissed and rightly so, but she didn’t act (that I know of). As big sister, I wanted to leave work and drive to her school and deal with the problem myself, but I couldn’t do that and I didn’t feel like going to jail or having a criminal record. So, I just prayed and then I prayed for my sister and the person that hurt my sister.
Now I’m a Taurus, an April Taurus at that. (Now, I’m not into horoscopes so please don’t say “oh Jade is into horoscopes” No I’m not) Taurus folk like me have a stickler for loyalty. We don’t do betrayal well. If I wasn’t saved by the blood of Christ, I’m sure I would have dealt in some type of new agey stuff type of way. But thanks be unto God that he changed me.
So dear friends, we’re just chatting about and as I talk to you, I’m speaking to myself, as well as the Holy Spirit leads. Please think before you act. The betrayals, the persecutions, the playa hating, etc; it’s going to continue, because Satan knows the body of Christ is anointed and sanctified, as well as justified and he wants to see if he can break us, so he can prove to God that we weren’t worth saving in the first place.
If there is one thing I’m continuously learning is that our faith journey is always tested, as one continues to be in Christ and every area of our lives are tested. Even in how we respond to betrayals and persecution type problems.
I’m sure Satan is up there when something like what happened to me in the example above saying “Ok is she going to trust you with taking vengeance or is she going to act on her own? I think she’s going to choose the latter.” One day, I need to prove him dead wrong, but I can’t do it alone. I need to learn to lean not into my own understand and trust God in all areas, including and especially when it comes to vengeance. As stated before in my sister situation, you just have to stop and pray and be honest with how you’re feeling with the Lord. Even if you say “Father, I don’t like this person, they made me angry but I don’t want to retaliate, please change my heart and continue to fill me with yourself, so that I won’t do the things that is displeasing to you.” I believe and trust that he will honor that prayer and will help you. Then hum or play in your mind “Yield not to temptation” (which is currently playing in my head, lol)
Bottom line, the Christian life is not easy, despite worldly reports and ignorance, it’s just not. So, we need to do our part as followers of Christ and trust him with everything.
So, how do you deal with revenge? Do you pull an Emily Throne via the TV show Revenge? Or do you let God deal with it and leave it with him?