Yep, the title reads right. I had an accidental overdose, which turns out could have been a lot worse. I literally do some stupid stuff and actually own it. This is pretty much a testimony and confession in one.
I take wellbutrin for ADD (generic name is bupropian) and accidentally took an extra dose thinking it was another meds. I realized my error, but I was like ok, no biggie and called my mom.
Like I said, I’m not freaking out, but my mom told me to call the pharmacy and then call her back. (I’m still at work, btw) I call and she told me that the max dose is 450mg. I take 300mg, so that 2nd dose added to 600mg. She said you should be fine, maybe a little headache. Then the next question, what other meds are you on? I have bipolar type 2. For that I take Zoloft at 200mg and Oxcarbazepine at 600mg at night. She mentioned the danger part, serotonin syndrome, which is life threatening. Then I start to freak out.
The symptoms started of shaking, confusion, headache, nausea, sweating, hot/cold feeling, dizziness……Oh, intense dizziness. I prayed to make it home while I was still lucid. So, after my mom researched wellbutrin side effects and overdose, she took me to the ER to be on the safe side. They took me back right away. I told them what happen and poison control and the doctor said I should be fine, just a mild overdose, not serotonin syndrome. So, after 5 hours in the ER, after the EKG, blood and urine test, heart and pulse monitoring, I was able to go home. The dizziness is still in effect, even as I type this. (I’m at work, btw)
The major concern was seizures, because the main horror of wellbutrin overdose is seizures. One the scare was over and they confirmed it was an accidental drug overdose; I was no longer freaked out.
I had a hard time sleeping though, which they explained may happen. Only 5 hours of sleep, as I’m typing this. I started to think, not daydream, but think. Then while playing bingo on Facebook, I listened to praise and worship music on youtube, after I figured out why youtube wasn’t working (rebooting solves everything apparently) I couldn’t help but praise and thanking God for his continuous hand over my life. I could have been and probably should have been a lot worse.
I’m sure you’re probably thinking, Um Jade, when are you going to get to the point? Well, here it is. God is always in control, even when we make the stupidest of choices, such as mine. I thought I might die yesterday. I was saying thank you to God for my time here on earth. Ok, I also added, I would have liked to experience things like motherhood, marriage, falling in love though. lol…..
Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8 explains my point perfectly:
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
God has a plan and purpose for everything, including the life lessons that we go through. Not saying that I planned on making this type of stupid mistake or he had a plan and purpose for my stupid mistake. It is what it is and I can say that now, because I’m ok. But, despite the headache, dizziness, and spaziness I’m feeling still, I could be dead, so I can say – Lesson taught, Lesson well learned.
This event has taught me
a) I need to learn when to multi-task and when not to.
b.) pay more attention to what I’m doing, especially when it comes to taking medicines.
c.) emergency rooms trips are expensive
d.) This is actually one of the few times in my life, I was embarrassed.
e.) I’m glad that I have Jesus as the savior of my life, because most people aint got that.
This has also taught me that everything happens for a reason, even the unexpected, crazy stuff that I’m known for like:
1) painting my lips with nail polish
2) putting the paper plate on a gas stove thinking it would heat up my food quicker (in my defense I was 6)
3) getting glue stuck on my forehead
4) accidentally losing $150.00 (I was very buzzed)
5) getting a stick in my throat after falling down the stairs, playing She-Ra at the top of the stairs
Ok, most of the stuff I did I was little, but I’m always kinda impulsive and weird, as well as experimental. This, however was not one of those times.
Well, I can scratch off having an overdose off the forbidden bucket list of things not to experience. (Got to find some humor in this)
I’m not looking forward to the ER bill, but Praise God for his healing power.